Random Monday Morning Thought

I just thought of something while I was in the shower (and truthfully I don't know if I am more shocked that I had time to think alone in the shower, or that I am thinking at 7 am after 4 hours of sleep).  I am EXTREMELY critical of myself.  I nit pick every little thing I do, and I honestly tend to do that to those closest around me too.  I know it is not right, yet I do it time after time. I also have next to zero confidence in myself, which leads to the second guessing of everything I do, etc.

How am I supposed to raise two young men that are confident in themselves, when I cannot even show I am confident in myself?  Yes, I praise EVERY little thing they do.  I take pride in their accomplishments, and I take pride when I see them doing something kind to others.  But then I listen to Pierce sometimes, and some of his comments are like they came out of my mouth.  Hearing. "now that is enough of x" makes me stop in my tracks.  Just like I teach them good things, I am also teaching them not so good things...which comes with the learning curve of parenting.

Until I am happy with myself and figure out who I am again, I don't feel that I can fully raise the boys to be the best they can.  Yes, I am Kelly.  Yes, I am Dan's wife and Pierce and Carter's mom.  However, that doesn't mean that is all I have to be.  There is so much more, and I have to instill that in my boys too.  I need to teach them by showing it is okay to be happy with who you are, no matter what may have been done in the past.  I need to teach them to be confident in themselves.  I guess I am going to be teaching myself along the way...it is what needs to be done.

Okay, random Monday morning thought over.  I will see you tonight!  Today we have a day of learning about circles.  :)