So while the rest of the day was not the easiest, it was better. It is amazing how 30 minutes of sleep can make things much better. I ended up making cookies with the boys, Pierce took off cleaning for a bit, and then I made the scented play dough with glitter for tomorrow.
I did stand there and cry for a minute while I was making dinner and both kids go into a crying match to see who could cry the loudest. Then I was reminded of how selfish I am, and how unappreciative I am to have the opportunity to be home with them. I guess I have been a little selfish, but I also think that moms have a right to be overwhelmed every now and then. We are not perfect, and should not pretend to be for the sake of our children. We make mistakes, just like them, but you teach your kids to apologize. Not to pretend that nothing bothers them.
We started back on the bed time routine, and everyone in the house fought me on that. I see it as a step towards having a better day tomorrow. And since I am the one who is home with them the most, that is how it shall be. And if it doesn't fix everything, then we tweak it. But you never know until you try. And give it a good, hard, try.
I am heading off to bed since I do have work in the morning thank you everyone for not judging me and letting me vent. It was needed. Pierce and Carter sweet dreams little men, and I shall see you when I get home. One day you will thank me for this. One day. I love you.
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